Saturday, October 4, 2008

A LOVE WHICH R NO ANSWER




" HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U , HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,HAPPY ..BIRTHDAY TO U "
HAPPY BIRTHDAY....
TIS SONG I WAN 2 SING FOR A GUY ...WEI ...
HE WAS 2 YEARS OLD ELDER THAN ME ...LAST MONDAY WAS HIS BIRTHDAY...
ON THE START , HE DUN WAN 2 RECIEVE MY PRESENT ...AFTER I TALK A FEW WITH HIM ...HE RECEIVE IT ..
THE PRESENT WAS A REGARD AS A GIRL WHO LOVE HIM ..IT WAS OSO AS A FREN REGARD ...I HAVE USE 10 MONTH 2 COMPLETE TIS PRESENT ...ALWAYS GO FOR SHOP 2 BUY PAPER 2 FOLD ..THE BIRD ...
THE AMOUNT OF BIRD IN TIS PRESENT WAS 1001 ...DID HE NOE WAT TIS AMOUNT MEANS ...DID HE NOE...
WHEN HE RECIEVE THE PRESENT ..THE AMOUNT OF BIRD HE GUESS WAS ONLI 500...
I WAS NT TINK ANYELSE ...BUT I TELL HIM MORE THAN 1000...
AND HIS YOUNGER BROTHER WAS CURIOUS ON THE AMOUNT ..SO HIS BROTHER COUNT THE BIRD ... FIRSTLY I THOUGHT HE COUNT HESELF ..AFTER I NOE THAT NOT HIM ...I WAS LOSE HOPE ..HOW DARE ..THIS PRESENT IS 2 HIM ..HOW DARE HE GV HIS BROTHER 2 COUNT ...I ASK ..DID U COUNT TOGETHER ,HAVE U NV C HW THEY COUNT...
"NO,I DIDNT COUNT WITH THEM ,BT I GOT LOOK FOR THAT "
HURT ,HURT ME SO BAD ..TIS PRESENT WAS 2 HIM AND HE DOESNT COUNT IT HESELF....
HURT SO BAD ...
YESTERDAY NIGHT , I CALL UPON HIM ...
I ASK HIM ...
"DOESNT U NOT FEEL ANY TOUCHING "
"DOESNT U HAVE ANYTHING 2 TELL ME "
" DID U HAVE SOMETHING WAN 2 HONEST 2 ME"
"Y U SAY THAT , I HV ASK U SOME QUESTION TAT U CANT GV ME ANSWER"
"MY INFLUENCE 2 U MAY NOT B SO BIG 2 U , RIGHT?"
"I NOT UR'S WHO, FOR WAT U FEEL STRESS..."
"MY INFLUENCE 2 U MAY NOT B SO STRESS ,RIGHT? "
" UR BIRTHDAY , U FEEL SICK..RIGHT? "
" DID WE HAVE CHANCE 2 OUT FOR EATING ? "
" I NOE U WAN EXAM AFTER DEEPAVALI , HAVE U PREPARE ? "
Y U ALWAYS TAKE A PRETEND 2 RUN OFF MY TALKING , Y U SO SCARD 2 ANSWER ME ABOUT ANY RELATIONSHIP, Y U LIKE ME ,AND U NOT COURAGE 2 TALK ?
OR AL OF TIS JZ MY THINKING .OR MORE SERIOUSLY , DREAMING ..
HOW DARE U ?
DUN NOE Y , I HV BLANK A SPACE FOR U IN MY HEART , DO U NOE IT?
HOW WAS ME IN UR HEART ? HV U BLANK ANY PLACE FOR ME ..??
I WAS SO EXCITED 2 FIND OUT THE ANSWER ..
BT TIS LOVE DOESNT HV ANY ANSWER , Y?
U NOE Y ?
WHEN I WAS THINK , U SAY ME THINK SO MUCH ..
U SCOLD ME OR U JZ GV ME ADVISE ..U SAY
" Y U LIKE 2 THINK SO MUCH ?"
" U STUDY FOR WAT "
" HOW COULD U SRY 2 UR PARENTS "
" U GO FOR TUITION , ATTEND 2 SCHOOL , WAT HAVE U LEARN "
SO HURT , DID U NOE...
I REPLY UR MSG , I SAY
" DID I SAY WRONG ,DID I SAY WRONG ON U "
"U ALWAYS GV ANY ANSWER WHICH R JZ A PRETEND , Y U DO THAT .."
" HV U EVER THINK THAT THE PRESENT I HV PREPARE 2 U ON EARLY EARLY TIME ,DID U NOE I HV PUT SO MUCH OF TIME AND REGARD IN THIS PRESENT ?
DID U NOE !! ??DID U NOE MY REGARD OF A GIRL WHO LIKE U ..
WHEN I CALL U OUT FOR EATING , U SAY NT FREE , OR BETTER WE DUN GO OUT EAT
JZ HAVING EAT , FOR WAT U THINK SO MUCH ...
I ASK DID U HV SOMETHING WAN 2 HONEST 2 ME , U SAY LATER , NOW U WAN PREPARE FOR EXAM....
I SAY I WAN 2 TELL U SOMETHING , BT I WAN U DUN THINK SO MUCH ,AND PREPARE BFORE I TELL U ...
WE REALLY HV SOMETHING PROBLEM NID 2 SOLVE BETWEEN US FACE TO FACE....
HV U FORGOT WAT U HV SAY 2 ME ...
U SAY WAN 2 INVITE ME 2 EAT ...I HV HELP U SO MUCH ON COPY THE NILAM ...HV U FORGOT OR U JZ TALKING LIE U NT REMEMBER EDI?
LAST TIME ...I ASK U SOMETHING ABOUT UR FEELING ON ME ?
ON RESULT , U LIKE ME ..BT JZ A TIME AND A TIME ONLI ...
I SAY IT ON MSN ..
I SAY
" I LIKE U "
BT U HV HURT ME SO BAD ...
DID U FEEL ANYTHING SORRY 2 ME ....
SOMETIME I FEEL U WAS SO SELF-CENTERED ...U DOESNT THINK FOR OTHER ...
I DUN NOE Y , ALTHOUGH MY CARE FOR U HAVE SHOWN , BT U NV HV ANY RESPONSES , JZ SAY U WILL DO THAT OR .....
Y ? WAT HAPPEN 2 U ?
Y ? U SO STRESS ?
Y ? U NOT NID 2 STRESS ON ME ?
Y? IF U LIKE ME .
Y ? U DUN TELL UR FEELING ?
Y...
TIS IS Y I SAY ..
TIS IS A LOVE WHICH HV NO ANSWER ...
I HV THINK BFORE..IF I DIDNT TAKE ANY PLACE IN UR HEART , FOR Y U CANT ANSWER MY QUESTION, Y U WILL FEEL STRESS,Y MY INFLUENCE 2 U SO BIG UNTIL STRESS.. OR ...U FEEL STRESS THAT I HV WRONG THINKING THAT U LIKE ME...I DUN NOE ...I DUN NOE...I REALLY DUN NOE....Y! Y! Y!...THIS NT WAT I WAN...

Y THE LOVE WORLD SO CONFUSING AND SUFFERING...Y!












PS: IF LOVE COME ,Y U WAN 2 PUSH AWAYS .
IF U PUSH AWAYS , WILL U REGRET ON IT..
IF U HV REGRET ,I WILL ACCEPT U BACK..
BT MAKE SURE ..U HV THINK PROPALY ON IT BFORE U MAKE ANY DECISIONS ..




THIS ONLI WAT I WAN 2 TELL ...JZ WHETHER U HV ACCEPT IT OR .........
I WILL ALWAYS WAITING FOR UR HONEST...IF U REALLY DOESNT HV ANY FEELING ON ME ,TELL ME ?
IF WE CONTINUE 2 B LIKE THIS , WAT I CAN TELL IS , EACH OTHER OF ME AND U WILL NOT FEEL HAPPY BT SUFFERING BETWEEN US .....THIS IS THE PROBLEM WHICH HV LAST FOR ABOUT 3 YEARS ...DUN SUFFERED AGAIN ...I WILL NT FEEL ANY HAPPINESS







A LOVE

I LIKE U
DID U LIKE ME
I CANT SAY I REALLY LIKE U ..
OR MAYB MY LV 2 U HV BEEN ABATE
BT ,
HOW WAS U
DID U LIKE ME?
OR U SAME LIKE ME
UR LOVE 2 ME OSO HV BEEN ABATE
IF LIKE ON EACH OTHER ,
DOESNT IT MEAN THAT WE R DESTINY
JZ U WAN ACCPET IT OR REJECT IT
BT I CAN TELL U
I REALLY LKE U ..
HV U SEEN MY HEART ?
PREPARE 2 TELL ME UR HEART ?
I HOPE OUR HEART CAN BELONGS 2 EACH OTHER
I HOPE ..
I REALLY HOPE IT ..
I HOPE 2 B EXEMPLARY OF A COUPLE IN FRONT OF MY FRENS
I HOPE I CAN GET A LOVE
BETWEEN THE GUY I LIKE .
AND THE GUY WHOM LIKE ME TOO.
WILL IT REALIZE ?
IT WAS STILL A DOUBTS UNTIL NOW ..
EXCEPT U HV NOE MY HEART










REMEMBER,






U COMPLETE ME,






U MAY COMPLETE ME ,






























THIS IS A LOVE

A HAPPY TRIP WITH MY FAMILY.....^^


after a three day two night trip...
oh my god...
so tired ...not enough sleep , energy wasting , money wasting ...
tis three day i have go 2 thai..
from 30.9.08 to 3.10.08....
cant think ...
tis three day was go over so fast ....the first day go...i jz think...gd lor....got somemore 2 day 2 play....
such child thinking...haha...
lastly back home with happy and tired ...
the last day ...after home ...keep all the bag ...things and so much... at last...2 o'clock sleep...11 o'clock reach home...haiz ...tired ...
2 day ...so much cloth 2 b fold and clean up the house ...haha....tired...
think and think...
oh my god...
3 essays and 1 folio not yet b complete...
but 2 day i 'm so lazy and lazy...awake at 12 o'clock...haha...
the homework didnt finish ...one oso no.....i c 2morow nid 2 burn midnight oil lor...haha....
so pity....tis all come from my lazy bhave ....haha....^^
although the trip was nt long ...
but me and family go over with more gd relationship and more...
i gain a lot ...experience....tuk tuk car ..the transport at thai ...nid 20 barts in one person ...
it mean 2 ringgit in malaysia...hehe
i buy so much things oh...
the day bfore i reach thai...i jz sms in whole journey 2 there in bus...the pick hoon lor...
talking so much rubbish in sms ...waste my money only....haha ...jz kidding....
one more person...jie...he was talking so much too ...with me ...last day i heard he hv gf oh...
dunno it's real or not...
if got ..wish him happy dating lor...
haha..exam coming lor...gt mood 2 dating ...haha...
bye bye