漫长的九天。。。

last saturday ...
i have attend 2 one kem ...
at el-azzhar ....
morib campsite...

tired ...
16 girl sleep in one small hostel...
me ...and 3 frens sleep 2gether in one bed...
bside ...
i always nid 2 help them take their bag ...
bcauz beside is a places 2 put bag....
1st , 2nd , 3rd ...day ....
they were jz slowly like a snail ...
after use their bag ..
they jz put on the bed...
when i ask ...
: hv u finish taking ur things ...if yes, i wan put the bag aside ...
3 times ...at least three times i ask ...
but for them ...
i jz like a mirror...when they nid me ...they will come without force them ...
if they not nid me ...
they will jz kick me away...



did they noe....
i dun wan b a mirror....



dun noe y ....
this 9 days ...
i go through with a very very bad mood...
cauz i hv been kick away by my frens....
although they will say no ...
did they noe....
me was go through more difficult than them ...



a good fren ...
bcauz of her group participant did not respect her ...
but they choose her been their naib presiden ....
she cry ...


she always think she r the pity 1 ...
so...
did she noe...
i cry in my heart ...
mayb they'll think that's not so terrible as i say ...
but they dun noe me....
they dun noe wat i think ....
they not really care me if they not nid me ...
that's y ...



this 9 day ...
always have a sad face and jz like wan 2 quarrel with them ...



did they noe...
i jz ...
wan 2 make them care about me ...
make them noe that i was there...
bside there....
dun make me as a mirror....




or mayb ...
i think too much ...
in this camp ...
we have change in personal....
in a unknown way...
or mayb ...
is ...
i change ....
y??



i jz wan they care on me ....
y??
when they get wat they wan ...
they jz kick me away....
wat people r this ...
they think they r who...
did i jz their servant ....
always waiting 2 serve them ...
always waiting for any order ....



who r them ...
wat fren r this ...
after tired a day ...
i wan sleep ...
they put their bag on the bed....
the bed was full with sand ..
i jz wanted them 2 take their bag and clean the sand ...
onli a small demand ...
i ask for three time ...
no response they give 2 me ...
they jz talk on their self...
in fourth time ...
i shouted for my demand ...
they say ...
: u wan sleep u sleep lah, u sleep urs ...unconcerned with us ...
wat kind of frens is this ...
really in talk ...
mayb they feel not pleased with me ...
but i was very very not pleased 2 them ...
this is truth ....




i jz wan their responses ...
y they jz make me as a transparency person ....
doesnt they thing that not onli their things r important ...
....




although was not happy so much in this 9 days ...
but i will tell them ...
if they keep on making me as a mirror....
i will nv forgive them for their mistake...
they dun like 2 b a transparency ...
but me too....
dun think that ...
they r onli the one ....



i will remember this 3 frens ...
nv b forgive for next time ....
hope i will not b repent for making this frens ...
hope their temperament of like a snail will b change ...
and i will make myself happy up ...
forgetting this terrible and stupid kanasai ...
deed .....



tired !!!!!

当爱情才真正要起飞时

当，发现爱情才真正要起飞时，

却发现爱情的翅膀早已受伤了，

我的发现，

或许太迟了，

但，

我仍然有一个梦想，

我仍然想要飞，

等待另一段爱情，

等待我的翅膀痊愈。

想要，

想要带着梦想和爱情一起往上飞，

飞到属于自己的天国，

我。。。

能吗？

心中仍然无法倾诉，

真爱 ，你懂了吗 ？

在痊愈的过程中，

我发现了，

发现了想要的友情，

但，

不长久，

发现了，

发现了亲情，

突然又灭了，

发现了，

发现了爱情，

想要飞了，

却在继续的旅途里，

又断了另一只翅膀，

总是，

断断续续，

问天，

何时，

何时才可以到达属于自己的天国，

问谁，

把我的翅膀折断，

让我的翅膀在等待中，

再次腐烂了！

不，

不是腐烂了，

只是一针一线缝织的翅膀，

被‘它’狠狠地，

剪断了。。。

这个梦，

永远都无法实现吧！

因为，

因为翅膀已经有所残缺了，

不能再飞了，

只能等待，

等待真爱送我一双翅膀，

让我圆梦，

让我拥有，

让我感受到，

真爱。。。

你的心意，

何时才要表示，

何时才能够开花结果，

结局是否真的，

真的可以如我想象中，

如此的，

完。。。。美。。。。

真爱，

应该只有你的表示，

才得以让我圆梦吧！！

或许吧！

这世上根本，

没有，

真爱，

这回事。。。

yuhoo......finish exam lor....hahahaha...^^

very
very
very happy ...
yeah.....
2day is the last paper...
ADD MATH...
haiz...
although i think i hv nv try my best ....
bt ..
it's ok...
cauz i not nid think so much about exam edi....
nid 2 think for next week kem le...
22/11/2008 to 1/12/2008
wow ...
it's time 2 relax leh...
hahahaha
frens...
hope u'll will go along very good in holiday ....
healthy ..
boy ...handsome always ...
girl....beautiful always ...
who wan keep fit de...
wish u will success....^^
gambateh lor...
me ..
wan waiting for a love lor ...
waiting for that guy....



i really ..
really feel very stupid lor...
the guy only noe 2 accept my paid of love...
bt i still on crazy and stupid situation...
on continue paid my love ...
wat i wan
jz wan his acceptable for my love...

mayb any ppl who invited my blogspot pages...
they will think...
y i jz always thinking about love....
y i nv think that wat will happen after fail 2 get a love...


i could tell them ..
i noe.....
bt i more wanted 2 get the memory which r love and nice ...
memory will last for long long time ...
so i will do tat ...
although i noe the end of this relationship.....


love is also one road will must go through in our life ...
bt at least ...
i dun like somebody ...
scard about love...
we should always try and courage 2 face tis ...
right ?



2day mood ws not bad...
so ...
i wan stop here ...
2 prevent my mood will be bad again . . . . .

bb..........




but i hv receive one more news ...
i find tat the present of bird i gv 2 ...wei....
i found he have count himself...
really really so happy in my....
..........heart.............