漫长的九天。。。

last saturday ...
i have attend 2 one kem ...
at el-azzhar ....
morib campsite...

tired ...
16 girl sleep in one small hostel...
me ...and 3 frens sleep 2gether in one bed...
bside ...
i always nid 2 help them take their bag ...
bcauz beside is a places 2 put bag....
1st , 2nd , 3rd ...day ....
they were jz slowly like a snail ...
after use their bag ..
they jz put on the bed...
when i ask ...
: hv u finish taking ur things ...if yes, i wan put the bag aside ...
3 times ...at least three times i ask ...
but for them ...
i jz like a mirror...when they nid me ...they will come without force them ...
if they not nid me ...
they will jz kick me away...



did they noe....
i dun wan b a mirror....



dun noe y ....
this 9 days ...
i go through with a very very bad mood...
cauz i hv been kick away by my frens....
although they will say no ...
did they noe....
me was go through more difficult than them ...



a good fren ...
bcauz of her group participant did not respect her ...
but they choose her been their naib presiden ....
she cry ...


she always think she r the pity 1 ...
so...
did she noe...
i cry in my heart ...
mayb they'll think that's not so terrible as i say ...
but they dun noe me....
they dun noe wat i think ....
they not really care me if they not nid me ...
that's y ...



this 9 day ...
always have a sad face and jz like wan 2 quarrel with them ...



did they noe...
i jz ...
wan 2 make them care about me ...
make them noe that i was there...
bside there....
dun make me as a mirror....




or mayb ...
i think too much ...
in this camp ...
we have change in personal....
in a unknown way...
or mayb ...
is ...
i change ....
y??



i jz wan they care on me ....
y??
when they get wat they wan ...
they jz kick me away....
wat people r this ...
they think they r who...
did i jz their servant ....
always waiting 2 serve them ...
always waiting for any order ....



who r them ...
wat fren r this ...
after tired a day ...
i wan sleep ...
they put their bag on the bed....
the bed was full with sand ..
i jz wanted them 2 take their bag and clean the sand ...
onli a small demand ...
i ask for three time ...
no response they give 2 me ...
they jz talk on their self...
in fourth time ...
i shouted for my demand ...
they say ...
: u wan sleep u sleep lah, u sleep urs ...unconcerned with us ...
wat kind of frens is this ...
really in talk ...
mayb they feel not pleased with me ...
but i was very very not pleased 2 them ...
this is truth ....




i jz wan their responses ...
y they jz make me as a transparency person ....
doesnt they thing that not onli their things r important ...
....




although was not happy so much in this 9 days ...
but i will tell them ...
if they keep on making me as a mirror....
i will nv forgive them for their mistake...
they dun like 2 b a transparency ...
but me too....
dun think that ...
they r onli the one ....



i will remember this 3 frens ...
nv b forgive for next time ....
hope i will not b repent for making this frens ...
hope their temperament of like a snail will b change ...
and i will make myself happy up ...
forgetting this terrible and stupid kanasai ...
deed .....



tired !!!!!