something 2 b wrong with me..

haiz..
something happen ..
really goin 2 happen..
did i really so disturb?
did i really hurt by this question??

yesterday ..
my good fren had tell me something about wat he say ...
he say ..
he fell i got a little disturb him .
i got force him 2 take part in bsmm duty,so he persistently wan 2 b in the opposite way..
i felt something wrong between us..

on evening sesi..
i heard something about us too..
bt i didnt care it so much..
bt when my good fren tell all of this 2 me..
i really had been hurt..
i wan 2 cry ..
bt i cant cry..
y ??
cauz this jz play play for me ?
or
the feeling still very shallow?
not value 2 cry for this??


i cant endure this kind of thing happen on me or
anything had happen around us that cauz this 2 pull me down ??


yesterday night i hv gone for malam mesra..
he brought the ticket from me..
as i saw him ..
i felt very happy ..
bt something jz control me..
i cant do that ..
we r not so close 2 each other..
by right.he also not courage 2 do that..
haha!!!

so how..
yesterday night i go on with not so happy mood..
we all wear very nicely..
bt i fail 2 take photo with him..
after i bk home..
i call him ..
he want me 2 talk with him ..
so i talk..
bt when i send a message that i wan take photo with him..
he hv find me in the whole hall..
i felt quiet happy..
at least he still hv "heart"
haha!!!

i hv take photo my own..
thx for my fren who gv me idea on wearing ..
especially ee and hui..

thx lor..

yesterday night i not stay long at the malam mesra ..
i already back home on 10.30...
haiz..
so regret cant take much much photo ..
cauz everybody very beauty and handsome ...
haha!!!

bt how..
i sleep at 1 .00 morning..(doin prefect report)
bt still not complete ..
hehe...

on 12 ..
i call him again ..
he say he's already sleep..
so i faster take down phone after say good night....
haha...

although yesterday morning not happy cauz of him ..
bt at night ..
at least my mood turn better...

me n him really found very unfortunately cauz nv take any photo ..
haha..
i think no chance le gua..
wat can do??
jz make it go on lor..
hoh!!! '0'

jz make it easy ba..
still hv chance de..
hehe!!!

i think that he really think that i hv disturb him..
so i sms him ..
i say ::

we make one week not talk ..
not meet ..
n pls tell everything when u felt not discontented on me..
if u tell other ppl..
i ll felt more hurt ..
so pls..


at night ..
i noe the answer..
he nv gv a constant answer..
jz say :up 2 u

omg..
so how..
i cant do anything ..
so i try everything not 2 call him if nv hv anything important..
mayb this is more better for me n him ..
still well..
haha
..
i not yet post my photo of my wearing on malam mesra ..
wait 2 tune..
haha


bb.....
^^

我自己并还不知道是否真的放下了

从上个月的放下文章里
我一直都在提着这个人。。
或许他已经知道。。
或许他还不知道。。
不懂了啦！！
乱乱乱！！！！！

从这个月里发生的一些事情。。
我发现。。
我并没有发现我是否真的放下了。。。
我只知道，
我还在意。。
他的想法，
他的存在，
他的一切一切。。
他的任何回答，
答案。。。


我不知道，
在我跟我的好友说我放下的时候。。
我是否真的是放下了。。
我并不懂。。
我或许懂我自己的想法，
我或许只是纯粹要逼我自己放下，
有或许是要隐藏他真正在我心里的地位
我真得很乱。。
我的心很乱。。
明明我和他的是已经成了过去。。
可是只要在朋友的逼问下。。
我确实没有办法回答任何问题。。。
他们要的答案。。。


我真得很乱。。。
我的朋友。。。
弈。。。
你有任何想法或意见吗？

你发现了我的心理的真正的答案了吗？

帮帮我！！！

说实话。。
我也很想知道我自己心里的答案。。
我真得很想知道。。
难道他真的有酱重要吗？
他到底在我的心理占了什么样的位置 ？？
他对我的影响不大吧！！？？
他对我来说不重要，对吧？？
对吧？？？

我很忧郁。。
明明都是。。。

我答不出...

应该都不可能了吧？？！！
算了。。
希望此事从此都没有发生过。。
我真的希望是如此。。。

boring ..start from 2moro is 1 week holiday

holiday start..
we ll hv a short period of time leave our frens..
we ll hv a short period of time leave a person we think everyday
we ll hv a short period of time leave the school which full of memory..

haiz...~~~

bored..
2day i felt so bored..
dunno y..
something un able 2 leave all of this...

mayb cauz of this year was spm..
we hv no time 2 hv any fun,
we should face tis year
very
very
seriously...
so how..

i dun noe...
jz hope everything gone through in a good condition
..
hope...


here i wan thx a ppl..
with name of an anonymous name..
thx for ur word..
i felt better now..
although i dun noe who r u ..
n u say still hv somebody whispered /support me..
thx..
although i felt something not stabil
in my heart..
bt u say u will support me in quite ..

so ..
thx so much
at least i noe hv somebody still care about me..
this is really really enough..
thx...

chin keong ..
u hv sick ..
right ?

keep healthy oh..
no healthy body ,
do anything u ll nt hv energy de..
^^
drink much water..
terrible headache ?
hv an enough bath..
hv some medicine..
if able..
go for exercise..
like jogging or everything lah...
wish u b better soon ...
take care oh...

support u behind u ..
still hv somebody still support u ..
u nt a little guy lor..
must b more mature lor...

haha ^^
i noe u hv bored in whole day ler..
haha
no ppl talk with u ..
no thing accept the tv lah..
haha
quite ok de...
bt if really cant ..
u should hv a full rest..
this month i noe u're quite tired lor...
something gone through between u n ...
so , i dun wan talk much ...
gambateh ba !!!


my plan of build a study group not success leh..
i really hope somebody can help me in study ..
bt y u'll dun wan help me...
i oso wish 2 hv a gd result de lor !!
y cant we study 2gether..
this can help in learning ..
for me !!
otherwise..
everything is still nt ok ...
later i'll be ko...

haha!!
how leh...
look widely ..
this help me in calm down my own...
gambateh ...elaine..
u can do that..