something 2 b wrong with me..

haiz..
something happen ..
really goin 2 happen..
did i really so disturb?
did i really hurt by this question??

yesterday ..
my good fren had tell me something about wat he say ...
he say ..
he fell i got a little disturb him .
i got force him 2 take part in bsmm duty,so he persistently wan 2 b in the opposite way..
i felt something wrong between us..

on evening sesi..
i heard something about us too..
bt i didnt care it so much..
bt when my good fren tell all of this 2 me..
i really had been hurt..
i wan 2 cry ..
bt i cant cry..
y ??
cauz this jz play play for me ?
or
the feeling still very shallow?
not value 2 cry for this??


i cant endure this kind of thing happen on me or
anything had happen around us that cauz this 2 pull me down ??


yesterday night i hv gone for malam mesra..
he brought the ticket from me..
as i saw him ..
i felt very happy ..
bt something jz control me..
i cant do that ..
we r not so close 2 each other..
by right.he also not courage 2 do that..
haha!!!

so how..
yesterday night i go on with not so happy mood..
we all wear very nicely..
bt i fail 2 take photo with him..
after i bk home..
i call him ..
he want me 2 talk with him ..
so i talk..
bt when i send a message that i wan take photo with him..
he hv find me in the whole hall..
i felt quiet happy..
at least he still hv "heart"
haha!!!

i hv take photo my own..
thx for my fren who gv me idea on wearing ..
especially ee and hui..

thx lor..

yesterday night i not stay long at the malam mesra ..
i already back home on 10.30...
haiz..
so regret cant take much much photo ..
cauz everybody very beauty and handsome ...
haha!!!

bt how..
i sleep at 1 .00 morning..(doin prefect report)
bt still not complete ..
hehe...

on 12 ..
i call him again ..
he say he's already sleep..
so i faster take down phone after say good night....
haha...

although yesterday morning not happy cauz of him ..
bt at night ..
at least my mood turn better...

me n him really found very unfortunately cauz nv take any photo ..
haha..
i think no chance le gua..
wat can do??
jz make it go on lor..
hoh!!! '0'

jz make it easy ba..
still hv chance de..
hehe!!!

i think that he really think that i hv disturb him..
so i sms him ..
i say ::

we make one week not talk ..
not meet ..
n pls tell everything when u felt not discontented on me..
if u tell other ppl..
i ll felt more hurt ..
so pls..


at night ..
i noe the answer..
he nv gv a constant answer..
jz say :up 2 u

omg..
so how..
i cant do anything ..
so i try everything not 2 call him if nv hv anything important..
mayb this is more better for me n him ..
still well..
haha
..
i not yet post my photo of my wearing on malam mesra ..
wait 2 tune..
haha


bb.....
^^