happy but miss him nite..~~

yesterday nite..
i was happy at my cousin house..
we having stimbot..
having karaoke..
n headache for whole day ..
haiz~~

how was him..
2moro he'll start his class..
so busy ..
his frenz has joke me for whole day..
at nite..when he know i was playing by them..
he jz like..
like..
nt care bout that ..
his frenz say they was funny 2 joke me for whole day ..funny !!!
bt he wan accompanion me yesterday nite..
finally ..
his phone out of battery ..
then ..
fullstop is put in our talk...1.00 a.m
bt everything we sms yesterday was make me ..
very touch..
i going 2 cry ..
he was threat me so good..
the feeling suddenly appear..
suddenly~~

my headache bcoming better at midnight ..
he was so willing 2 accompanion me..
n always say i was a patient..cannot sleep too late..
bt he was so busy ..
2day he nv reply my message ..
seem his's really really so so so so busy ...

2moro he's starting his class..
bt me is on holiday ..
n he'll not bk in this holiday ..

i dun noe how 2 say le lor..
bt yesterday nite was really really suffer in headache ..
bt happy in karaoke..
sing sing sing..
nv wan 2 stop..
hope the pain can b delete..bt i really miss him..
in my mind.~~

:"dun put urself too tension.."
how i cannot put myself in tension..??
school kem is helding now..
many document nid 2 b settle..
n the participant of the kem..
so so so ~~..~~
terrible~~~~~~~~~~

my brother bring his frenz bk home n live for 2 nite..
they r good ..
bt i not so noe on them..
yesterday noon..
i cook for them 2 eat..
2day at tanjung sepat i cut some fruit for them..
haha~~
they thx me..
n welcome..
haha~~
they bk 2day ..~~ ^^

i found one way which can show my miss on him..
bt after he bk..
he will noe the answer..
hope he really very clever as that n found that way ...
gambateh lor..~~^.^
hope he's all the best at there ..
n can suit 2 the environment there..

2 hour ..in dream ~~

add math project..
hv grab my 8 hour dream time..
so late..
2day panda eyes come out all..
so terrible..
yesterday nite..
do project until 4.00 morning..
think dun wan 2 sleep de..
bt at last..
still sleep for bout 1 n half hour..

2day look not so good..
like dead liao..
the face look no mind..
no energy..
coz oso feel not well..
haha..~~
whole day headache ..
so ..terrible..
next time not brave 2 do this on my own liao..
haha..~~
finally...
exam is pass..
can relief liao..
bt seem not free somemore..
school kem..
haiz..~~
hmm...
hope my work can done faster in speed..
speeding..~~
must finish all ..
if not kill by teacher ah..

this exam result seem not so good liao..
haiz~~
face it..
face the truth of getting worse result..

SPM>>>
gambateh ~~~~~!!!!!!!

health~~

so terrible..
no appetide for almost 3 week..
i cant happen this..
wat happen 2 me..
wat happen..??
y my appetide suddenly bcome like this..
no eat ..
no energy..
no mind..
haiz~~

he's not aside ..
everything i do myself..
no him bside me..
feel so alone..~~
alone~~

he's such busy ..
i cannot disturb him..
but i still hope he can share with me..
if he face any problem or anything..
i jz hope can aside him when he nid me..
so how was me..??
hmm...~~~
jz gone like this lor...
although i wan him 2 accompanion me..
bt mayb the time is really really wrong gua..
he's really busy ..
although this week not yet start the course..
i hope can c him again..
haha~~


hope he'll b all the best there...
gambateh ~!@@
dun gv urself too much of tension..
relax a bit ..
when got time 2 rest..
healthy ..
n happy always ...~~ ^_<
he's leave..
so my blog oso hv no mood 2 write ler..haha~~

cheat~~

i choose 2 thrust him..
he tell me that he will leave yesterday ..
he cheat me..
not yesterday bt 2day..
he leave 2day..
yesterday we was crying..
crying..~~
i cant think y he wan 2 do that at all..
he say dun wan 2 make me worried..
n he nid some time 2 overcome the emotion n feeling problem...
he hope that he can leave here with not make me worried ...

bt yesterday ..
i think we really hurt so bad..
i scold him..
coz of my emotional status..

when afternoon ,i call his frenz 2 help me take care him at there..
if i nv call ..
i dunno that he hv cheated me that he is leaving yesterday ..
i nv wanted 2 hv a clear answer about that situation..
i choose 2 thrust him..

at nite..
he tell all..
he say that he cheated me..
he hope i can forgive him..
ya ..
i forgive him..
i hope he dun so worried about me again..
we still hv the chance 2 meet...
all the thing is over..
i forgive him..
i dun wan that our relationship was stop or break by onli this problem..
i dun wan..
now i really really noe his heart..
i noe wat's the reason..
believe me..
dun jz worried again..
n him doesnt sleep for 2 nite ..
yesterday i accompanion him until he sleep..(hope he was really asleep ler..nv reply msg)
i still hope that me..his girlfrenz..
still can bside him when he really nid each other..
2day so early wake up..
although cry for 1 nite..
bt it's ok..
not terrible than him..

hope he leave here..with a non worried situation..
take care..
i really think he was very 傻 。。
until he wan cheat me ..
did he still mean i'm his gf ..
ya ..he mean that..
we dun wan 2 make each other worried about each other...
this ~~
i noe he noe..
hopefully he'll b all the best at there..~~
hopefully ~~

curious friday..~~

this's the one i do for him..(draw myself de oh..)














this's the present he gv me..^^ (cute)

1st day dating..

talk until ntg 2 say..

haha~~

feel like guai guai de..

haha~~

bt very happy lor..

at least we hv a 1st day dating bfore he leave..

haha..~~

felt quite sweet de..

he look good..

not like sick..

hehe~~

although we nv eat..

n jz talk for bout 2 hour..
enough ba..

he's quite busy..

so make him felt not 2 worried bout me lor..

he's quite naughty..

gv present oso not brave..

jz put in my bag when i no at side..

when i bk home..

i quite surprise de lor..

he got buy present for me..

although we think oso that 1 day we'll separate too coz of some reason..
bt i'll continue coz i noe although we cannot 2gether at last..

bt at least..
we're the 1st for each other..

= = '''

dunno how was he after see my present..

did he like that..

dunno lor..

blongs 2 him lor..

haha..

bt the present he gv very cute oh..

i like it very much..

haha..

hope all the best for him at 'utar'

gambateh oh..

i'll waiting for u ..

although it was 5 year long..

although both of us feel this relationship not so safe..

although u think u'll hurt me..~~

gambateh..^^

=@= happy memory =_=

i'll still my heart n wait for u ..

so we cannot hurt each other oh..

^^

mayb he feel that i not so brave 2 c him..

mayb gua..

i oso not sure at all..

coz 1st time gua..

each other not so suit 2 that situation ..gua~~

haha~~

he's going leave 2moro..

going 2 leave~~

'leave~~'

addict~~

really going 2 mad..

how terrible..

2day chemistry paper..

haiz~~

two day we didnt contact ler..

did he still healthy..

did he still busy ..

dun noe ~~
he so big..

sure noe how 2 take care himself de..

not nid worried for him..

the present is done oh..

u must hope when it reach ur hand oh..~~ ^^

haha..~~

these week..
stomach not so well..
nescafe..
still day 1 cup.

nite 1 cup..

addict le gua..

if not..

cannot study oh..

if study can nt 2 think bout him lor..

can study lor..

not 2 miss lor..~~

so many thing lah..

hope he's rmb 2moro date..
i waiting this day so early early lor..
dunnoe how was him now..

must b in healthy n happy situation ba..~~

gambateh..

still got phy n bio..

gambateh..

sure will do best in this 2 more subject..

add math n math..

after this weekend lah..

haha..~~

best frenz tell that..

i'll not do present for him if i really not like him..

than the present mean wat?

souvinear?

memory ?

or jz a girf..

for a boy..

??

haha..~~

i believe myself..n believe him..

we'll 2gether very very long time..

i thrust him..

so ..

this present must for a boy that i really like lor..

hehe ..~~

hope he really really value this..~~

gambateh ..!!

^#^ love ^@^..

i will b stay my heart..

still ...

for "u"

i thrust..this start of relationship is not a wrong choices..

is the best n good started of us..

coz we like each other..~~ ^^

worried..

not nid 2 worried for each other..
not nid 2 worried that whether each other is ok ..
not nid so worried..
coz we're edy big big boy n big big girl ler..
haha ~~

he's really going 2 leave..
this saturday..
3day left..
i'll gv him a present on the day we dating..
stay tuned..
hopefully he'll like that..
i'll done it myself..
hope..

hope i can complete bfore friday..
friday will b the best memory for me..him ?
dunno..

yesterday nite i feel so relax..
the burden,worried..
is all disappear...
hope for each other..
take care when he reach there..
must take care himself..

i'll b well here..
the heart is still..~~
still ~~

nv change..i'll not change 1st de lor..
dun think i'll change..
all the best..
" go with god "
remember..
i was here waiting the day "u " bk...
^@^ memory ^=^
will stay forever..

study nite..~~

yesterday midnite

0000 - 0200

study a subject which going 2 kill me..

yesterday no will day..

dinner eat so so so little..

bt nv feel any hungry ..

bfore start study..

nescafe 3 in 1..

drink it..

without 1 hour..

gastralgia appear..

i nv hv a problem like this ..

nv ..~~

felt so scard n worried..

the worried nv gone..

mayb he will angry or disappointed when he noe this thing happen..

(mayb onli ~~ )

mayb he'll think y i nv tell him when i got problem ..

mayb he'll think y he nv aside me when i nid him..

i nid him 2 tell the truth ..

his heart..~~

he was so many thing 2 do for school ..

i really unable 2 tell him all of this..

i wan gv him a happy n good memory ..

bfore he l..e..a..v..e..~~~

the day that no will.~~

so terrible 2day is..
no appetite,
no energy,
no mind
look tired,
no soul..
it hv been so terrible..

the suffer feeling come bk again..
i think 2day we can meet n can tell him my problem..
bt not seem is a good idea..
he nid 2 prepare for school..
although jz left one week..
although i dun wan 2 let any time for us 2 meet gone..
although..
bt this feeling is going 2 kill me..

i dun wan 2 make him worried..
i nv tell him y i wan 2 meet him 2day..
although we plan wan 2 meet earlier..
i scard 2 wait for the day he'll leave..

he say he wan settle my problem bfore he leave..
i felt so sweet..
so nice..
he's so well...

bt i cant tell him everything..
i dun wan 2 make him worried me..
i dun wan 2 make his burden heavier..
i dun wan...~~

2day i really dun think i gone through well..
i onli felt suffer..
tired..
crazy ..
n so idiot..

haha..^^
gambateh ..
evryone..
especially him..
dun worried about me..
i'll b very well..
n we can 2gether for a long long time..
i'll wait for u ..~~ ^_<

love..~~

i accept him..
we start..
2day is the 1st day ..
fully meaning..
bt i hv worried him for whole day liao..
so pity..
bt this i gv chance 2 myself..
n him too..
although we goin 2 separate..
although we ll gone through long distance love..
although i not willing 2 let him go..
bt study is more important..
i'll let u go..
we can gone through long distance love..
next week u'll go..
left one week..
i felt unwilling...

hurt..~~
hope he'll b all the best at there..
i'll wait..
i believe myself n believe him too..
i can wait..
we can face this ..
gambateh ^_<

this'll gv us a different love..
i'll try my best in SPM..
u must promise not 2 make me worried again..

end..

w.c tan.....
i think u hv oso seen everything i write 2 u ..
i hv found my real feeling..
i hope u'll not sad when i tell that..
i threat u as frenz ..
onli frenz..
bfore i do so many on u ..
coz i scard i ll like u ..
this reason u should noe..
right ??
this is wat u hope ..
right ??
u like a girl..
i noe..
wish ur crush 2 her will have a good result..
i wish u ..
good luck..
now is on exam week...
gambateh ^^
i still hope that u will come down banting ..
n we can meet ...
haha ^^
hope this days come faster..
although we hv seen through picture..
i still wish 2 c u..
real person oh..
aza aza fighting..~~ ^^

news..~~

yesterday nite..
i feel alone ..
suddenly feel so..wat happen 2 me??
yesterday nite..

we talk through phone..

the time jz onli 5 more minute..

he's busy..

cant do anything..

i should cut off..

i heard the news..

he'll leave this saturday ..

i wan him dun leave so fast..

he wan a reason..

i cant talk anything..

i doesnt hv any reason 2 make him stay ..

doesn't

i feel shocked..

i feel sad..

i fell not willing 2 let him go..

bt how..

will he noe..

will he understand all of that ..

i dun noe..

mayb he noe that ..

i dun noe y he nv reply my message ..

yesterday nite ..

i was uncourage 2 take up his phone..

bt i take up lastly..

we was quite bout half minute..

nv tell anything..

jz ..

hearing each other breath ..

my younger brother tell me ..

i was clear that time..

really really i should..

is the frenz like onli or..

or..boys n girls like..???

yesterday nite..

i fail 2 sleep..

i dun noe y ..

i still hope he ll give me a sure answer..

bt i noe..

i cannot force him 2 stay ..cannot ~~...

the comment is leave by the - anonymous..

i guess is him..wee chee...

i not angry..did u understand..

i not angry..!!

this is not wat i hope..

i hope u will find me..

really !!

if u really wan 2 bk 2 bfore..

i ...can..a..cc..ept..~~

:( >> :( ; - >> cry..

i dun like this person ..

this is not real of mine...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exam week ~~ ^_< >> :(

13/5/09;

P.SENI VISUAL paper 1 n 2
paper 1 ..objektif..

paper 2 ..drawing..quite good ...
not bad oh..*

14/5/09 ;
BM paper 1 n 2...

paper 1 ..sleepy..

paper 2 ..careless..

15 marks lost...~~ :(

15/5/09 ;

BI paper 1 n 2
paper 1 ...quite good..
paper 2 ...ok onli ..

19/5/09 ;

SJ paper 1 n 2 ...

paper 1 ...objektif..guess 20/40
paper 2 ...terrible
SIVIK paper...boring..easy..

20/5/09 ;

B.CINA paper 2...ok gua..no much problem

PM paper ...hehe..mayb die lor..

20/5/09 ;

CHE paper 1 n 2

paper 1.. still can

paper 2..kill myself..

21/5/09 ;

PHY paper 1 n 2

paper 1..ok ok...

paper 2..erm..dunno how 2 say..say good not so good..say bad not such bad..haha~~

25/5/09 ;

BIO paper 1 n 2

paper 1..terrible..almost half wrong..

paper 2..still can..hope no fail ..wahahaha~~

PJK ...guess..guess..cincai doing ..haha..

26/5/09 ;

CHE paper 3...tips..i love u so much..hahaha..wakaka..~~

BC paper 1..ok onli..no mood 2 write.

PHY paper 3..wat is that..resisitance..length no affect?

27/5/09 ;

BIO paper 3..

28/5/09 ;

ADDMM paper 1 n 2

paper 1..haiz~~

paper 2..haiz~~

this year sure fail liao..

haizzzzzzzzzzzz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

29/5/09 ;

MM paper 1 n 2

paper 1 ..okokokokok

paper 2 ..okokkokookokokok

boyz...~~

which boy is not happy when a girl like him??
which boy will feel happy when a girl he like not like him..??
boyz..
jz an animal that will make girl hurt ,cry ,sad..n more..
boyz..
also a human make girl feel the happiness in love..romance,sweet ..

when a girl like a boy..
n the boy noe it..
the boy ll happy ..
but when they noe..
they cannot 2gether ..
sad appear..

like by a person is better than u like a person..
this is true..
which girl dun wan 2 like by a person..
if she noe..
she 'll accept the boy..
bcoz girls noe..
like a person is very suffer than like by a person..
true??

hurt so bad..~~
haha...2day writing oso make me blurrrrrr...~~~~~~
haiz..~~~
exam is 2moro ..
gambateh ..
my frenz..
u'll must try ur best oh..!!!!

haha..^^
i fell happy when a boy ...me...
onli if he's really really like..
i 'll accept ..
coz ...
i noe he....me...

i dun like a boy uncourage 2 tell they like a girl...
shy 2 tell that ..
haha ^^
if u'll really like a girl..
braver ...
self-confident higher..a bit..
by this onli u can crush a girl..
n u can succeed on want her 2 b ur gf..
gambateh..^^

chance i hv given 2 him..
whether he will hv a bit action or anything..
c onli ..
i wan tell u ..
u hv the chance..


blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

bad mood ~~

feel something going 2 happen..
suddenly..
suddenly feel suffer...
the feeling come out again...
feel suffer...
yesterday ..
i still happy..
at least ..
at least i still ..
hv ...

dunnoe wat happen 2day..
i talk 2 my best frenz ..
a chatting with my senior..
he's a quite good person..
he's nice...
very good 2 b frenz..
bt as i noe something ..
i shocked..
surprise..
n happy too...
at least ..
i still hv..

i dunnnoe wat 2 say 2 him..
bt he hv "closer frenz" too..
although i feel not so good..
for him 2 separate with his "closer frenz"coz ..
he wan go study ..
if ..
for him..


he tell me at last..
傻傻的~~
i dunnoe i hv this kind of characteristic..
real..??

mayb it was jz a puppy...
did he understand..
i dunnoe ..
whether he's still ... me..
bt i can sure..
when i contact him..
he quite shocked gua..mayb..~~
after he tell all..
did he hope me 2 say anything..
accept??
reject??
we'r impossible..??

hahah..
dun think so much..
go on with ur latest "closer frenz"..
if can ..
try not 2 separate..
..gambateh..^^
if u hv a more self-confident,
n u really really....
i ll accept u ..
after SPM ba..!!
haha^^

2day suffer feeling appear again..
dun noe wat is the reason..
y i ll still hv this kind of feeling..
dun noe...
make it over ba !! ~~~~

frenz ...~~

c: how r u ??

m: u r??

c: w.c lah ..

m: i dun noe u ,i think u hv wrong person..

c: pls.i not accept this..

m: i really dun noe u ..dun disturb me..

c: y u change like this??

c: when u think probebly ..come n find me,me very welcome u de..

m:not nid 2 wait for this day ..

c:u ll reply this meant u noe who am i ..i ll not put away u ,this frenz..dun think frenz's toy..

m: i didnt think frenz's a toy,i jz run from the problem,u noe ,right ?!!!y u wan 2 pull me bk ,y !!?

c: wat call frenz !! dun forgot it...

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i dun noe how 2 reply this mesage..

tell ..i really forgot..

this is me??

will me happy if i tell like this 2 u ??

did i will??

i tell him last sunday..

we dun contact for one week..i wan 2 return bk

ur peace..

2day is jz saturday..

one week time limited is not yet over..

y u wan sms me...

y dun u sms me after really really one week...

after i forget u ..

after u forget me...

y u wan make me waste the time of a week...y ??

i really pay a lot on this week...

not 2 think bout u ..

live with happiness..

ntg 2 think bout frenz...

y dun u let me away..

let me go...

y dun u do that...

i noe u value frenz..

bt this time u really really done on a wrong person..

the frenz shouldnt is me...

not ..

it could not..
it must not..

so easy for u 2 do this..

y dun u let me away..

i hv tell u the reason y i wan do that..

y u dun jz cheat with me ..

i cheat u,n u accept it..

i tell u long long time ago...
our conversation stop on this afternoon...2night??

2moro morning??

everyday coming soon..??

how i wan gone with 2day..everyday..

is't wat u should do...

y dun u paid more attention on study ??

y dun u think more about ur frenz that really really bside u ??

y ??

days...^^

finally..
i force myself 2 stop contact him..
stop everything..
by right,
i can prevent myself from being in love with him..
he got girl 's he like..
i should not disturb him or event appear in his life..
智。。
hehe..
finally
i succed 2 do that on u ..
finally..
i think u ll nt n should not come ..
visit me or even my blog..
haha..^^

i really can accept it..
coz wat i say is form..
i threat that 2 u,
u threat that 2 me..
like now..
nv contact n do nothing..
u c..
happy life..
i noe,
mayb my feeling on now is not the feeling i write in this...
so how??
this is my life..
i should accept it ..right??

this is very normal life...
actually,
u really should not threat me so good..
u hv seen the result..
i hv bcome a barrier..
on u ..
that's y i want u not threat me as wat u do on other..
god..
send u on my side when i face problem..
when it solve..
it's time u should leave..
did u understand??
this is not the way u should threat me..

2 days over..
i nv contact u n do nothing..
this is y ..
although u'll contact or do anything...
i ll tell u ..
it's time u leave..
leave me away..
this is not the way..

i count 1 day to days..
i hope 1 week ll gone faster..
n my feeling oso gone in this week..
limited one week..
if i can do so..
then u're freed..
freed from me..
this terrible frenz..
haha..^^
then i ll nt ever disturb u or contact u ..
our relationship stop until here..
if the god still wan it continue ..
the days,time ll come..
wait n see...
wat the choice hv god make for me..

i ll wait n see..
coz i noe i cannot accept the result at all..
so that's y ..
god ..
u should make the decision for me....
i'll accept wat ur choice given 2 me..
good luck..!!
PPT is coming soon,...
myfrenz..
gambateh lor..^^