空白

在写这篇文章的时候，

我的脑袋，

是，



空白的。。



although 2day was gone through in a stabil mood ...

but my mind is in blank ...



many thing keep in my heart ,

very much ...

a very heavy burden ...

until i cannot breath...



like yesterday ,

i would tell a guy that i like to...

tell him my problem...

but he was quiet tired...

and i was not ready 2 tell everyting ...

so that ,

eveything from rice bcome a porridge..

i nv tell everything ....



friendship broke...

family quarrel...

love ...

waiting for him bt mayb he dun noe ...

next year same as me form 5 ...

SPM years...



haha....

stress...



how leh...

how 2 face this year with .......







i lost a frens ...

for me ...

she is a very good frens ...

but now ...we broke down cauz by an activity programme....



i dun't think i was wrong ...

bt she oso nv admit that she's wrong ..

i get a news , she oso hv quarreling with one more frens ....

at about in same situation with me ....

i dun noe y...

in my mind ...

she was a very persistent girl...



in every one mind, she was this kind of girl...

y ...she nv change...

and her change onli in a very very short time ....



y like tis...

i dun noe...

but that day ..

i make a choices..

i decide 2 broke down with her ,

when i ask her : if this problem non b slove in fast ...

we 'll nv b frens again ...



she answer :nvm ..and.....^^



c...

thi is her answer ...

cauz she got say bfore...

i still not her real fren ....

everyone should noe...

when u very respect and value her ...

this answer will make u hurt and heart broke....

that's y ...

i oso try 2make her accept me as her real fren ...



so ...

when i heard her answer ...

i really make my choices b form...

ok ...

u dun care 2 b frens back...

so ...very happy hv been meet "u" bfore...

not meet again...

not bye...





this is my answer ...

not care....

u r not a distinct human ...

frens every where ...

lose one not mean i lose all....







family ...

my relationship with my mum hv gone down ...

cauz of this kind of human ....

firstly i not care on the first quarrel ,

but the 1st quarrel make me and my mum

relationship gone down....





all my fren noe...

my relationship with my mum was nt good on the year that hv gone through...

and ..

this year...

onli ...

onli...i start 2 gone up the hill of relationship with my mum ....





still cauz ...

cauz..

by this human ...

i gone down the hill 2 the beginning ...



so how....

who can help me ...







make this bcome a dream ...

not happen in the real....



please.....

his birthday......^_<

happy and sad day..........

26/12/2008,Friday,a nice day

his birthday ...

ming ren ...and his twins brother ....ming shiaw....

this is the 1st time their frens celebrate with them...

this may noe by us.....

after a pratice for next year "yin chun hui "

we go celebrate birthday for them at " star restaurant "

after i lie 2 him tat i go buy some things 2 b use in programme...

he doesn't doubt that i was going buy cake for them ...

in celebration , we play them with drawing their face with the cake....

we can't think tat they sit quietly for us 2 drawing for them....

they was so pity.....haha^^

the non wasting ming ren ...pick up the cake on the table 2 eat....

cant think .....

right?? haha....

but we really hv so much of pleasure that day ...

photo show time..

bt not much ..haha^^

c!!twins that love 2 show ..^^

this photo take quiet so dark

sad part...

pressure in heart...

cauz of a bsmm programme ...

i quarrel with my fren ..

she had take away my last chance of complete a one day programme...

and my relationship with my mum hv broke down...

i dun understand ....

i hv cry oso 2day....

i think...

onli the one chance 2 cry ...

y i nv cry out as much as i could....

as wat ming ren say a long time ago....

my heart hv draw a blank in that time....

i dun wan this happening ...

somebody ...i hope can help me ....

i really dun wan make this problem goin with me so long time ...

and my life with my family was got somemore a long journey....

make this thing over ...

please...

GOD....

TEACH ME HOW 2 SOLVE IT...

PLEASE!!

the boy ...in my mind..^^

uncontrol..

can't think ...

the boy

he ..

cried...

after i pick my phone..

he was on cryng ...

i shiver...

my hand ..

shiver uncontrol....

my mind was in confuse...

wat happen .

wat should made him cried...

cried that i nv seen bfore...

in my mind ..

i always think that he is a very strong guy ...

he will not fall down under a small small thing ...

i can't call off my heart and my shivering hand...

i so scard ...

i wan c him on that time..

but i was at cousin house...

on the time...

i jz have a think tat i wan meet him now.

i felt worry ...

i cant calm down ...

i jz can think in many way...

wat happen ...

wat happen 2 him ??

the 2nd day...

i call him...

and i go meet him ..

un known by him...

when i call..

he was dreaming...

he was in his dream world...

his brother call upon him.

we meet outside his house...

grassland ...

we sit on the swing...

i prepaid my self...

i start b his audience...

can b noe ...

he was controlling his mood...

his feeling ...

can b feel...

he wan cry ...

but he control it ...

wat i can do...

i quiet myself...

i sit and start 2 dissolve in his talk ...

start 2 b with him ...

in the same position with him...

but the god ...

it playing us...

not more than half of a hour.....

the sky cry ...

in my way ...

the rain have gone through with his tear ...

his tear flow down with the rain ...

we didnt stand under the rain ...

bt i can noe...

his heart have dissolve with the rain ...

he cry in heart...

6.oo p.m. he nid 2 go ...

he nid 2 go 2 his cousin house...

somebody have gone 2 the next world which r more beauty and peace from here...

i gv an advise...

if u wan 2 cry ..

u should cry...

u could not keep it in ur heart ...

it will b a burden ...

a very heavy burden ..

it will make u can't breath...

u have a big touch in ur heart ...

bcauz ur mind hv stay with ur cousin feeling ...

u r jz like him...

he is u ...and u was he...

that's y ..

u hv such a big , strength feeling...

i wan 2 thx 2 u ...

u hv made me as a fren which can b ur audience

2 hear ur heart...

a load on ur's mind ...

thx...

i will go with u...

remember ...

here was a girl waiting for u ...

dun ask y i'm waiting ...

i jz wan 2 tell u ...

i will b very volunteer 2 b with u

and always ready my self ...

2 b ur audience ...

2 go through all the difficulty with u ...

in ur life...

i ll waiting ...

waiting for u....

漫长的九天。。。

last saturday ...
i have attend 2 one kem ...
at el-azzhar ....
morib campsite...

tired ...
16 girl sleep in one small hostel...
me ...and 3 frens sleep 2gether in one bed...
bside ...
i always nid 2 help them take their bag ...
bcauz beside is a places 2 put bag....
1st , 2nd , 3rd ...day ....
they were jz slowly like a snail ...
after use their bag ..
they jz put on the bed...
when i ask ...
: hv u finish taking ur things ...if yes, i wan put the bag aside ...
3 times ...at least three times i ask ...
but for them ...
i jz like a mirror...when they nid me ...they will come without force them ...
if they not nid me ...
they will jz kick me away...



did they noe....
i dun wan b a mirror....



dun noe y ....
this 9 days ...
i go through with a very very bad mood...
cauz i hv been kick away by my frens....
although they will say no ...
did they noe....
me was go through more difficult than them ...



a good fren ...
bcauz of her group participant did not respect her ...
but they choose her been their naib presiden ....
she cry ...


she always think she r the pity 1 ...
so...
did she noe...
i cry in my heart ...
mayb they'll think that's not so terrible as i say ...
but they dun noe me....
they dun noe wat i think ....
they not really care me if they not nid me ...
that's y ...



this 9 day ...
always have a sad face and jz like wan 2 quarrel with them ...



did they noe...
i jz ...
wan 2 make them care about me ...
make them noe that i was there...
bside there....
dun make me as a mirror....




or mayb ...
i think too much ...
in this camp ...
we have change in personal....
in a unknown way...
or mayb ...
is ...
i change ....
y??



i jz wan they care on me ....
y??
when they get wat they wan ...
they jz kick me away....
wat people r this ...
they think they r who...
did i jz their servant ....
always waiting 2 serve them ...
always waiting for any order ....



who r them ...
wat fren r this ...
after tired a day ...
i wan sleep ...
they put their bag on the bed....
the bed was full with sand ..
i jz wanted them 2 take their bag and clean the sand ...
onli a small demand ...
i ask for three time ...
no response they give 2 me ...
they jz talk on their self...
in fourth time ...
i shouted for my demand ...
they say ...
: u wan sleep u sleep lah, u sleep urs ...unconcerned with us ...
wat kind of frens is this ...
really in talk ...
mayb they feel not pleased with me ...
but i was very very not pleased 2 them ...
this is truth ....




i jz wan their responses ...
y they jz make me as a transparency person ....
doesnt they thing that not onli their things r important ...
....




although was not happy so much in this 9 days ...
but i will tell them ...
if they keep on making me as a mirror....
i will nv forgive them for their mistake...
they dun like 2 b a transparency ...
but me too....
dun think that ...
they r onli the one ....



i will remember this 3 frens ...
nv b forgive for next time ....
hope i will not b repent for making this frens ...
hope their temperament of like a snail will b change ...
and i will make myself happy up ...
forgetting this terrible and stupid kanasai ...
deed .....



tired !!!!!

当爱情才真正要起飞时

当，发现爱情才真正要起飞时，

却发现爱情的翅膀早已受伤了，

我的发现，

或许太迟了，

但，

我仍然有一个梦想，

我仍然想要飞，

等待另一段爱情，

等待我的翅膀痊愈。

想要，

想要带着梦想和爱情一起往上飞，

飞到属于自己的天国，

我。。。

能吗？

心中仍然无法倾诉，

真爱 ，你懂了吗 ？

在痊愈的过程中，

我发现了，

发现了想要的友情，

但，

不长久，

发现了，

发现了亲情，

突然又灭了，

发现了，

发现了爱情，

想要飞了，

却在继续的旅途里，

又断了另一只翅膀，

总是，

断断续续，

问天，

何时，

何时才可以到达属于自己的天国，

问谁，

把我的翅膀折断，

让我的翅膀在等待中，

再次腐烂了！

不，

不是腐烂了，

只是一针一线缝织的翅膀，

被‘它’狠狠地，

剪断了。。。

这个梦，

永远都无法实现吧！

因为，

因为翅膀已经有所残缺了，

不能再飞了，

只能等待，

等待真爱送我一双翅膀，

让我圆梦，

让我拥有，

让我感受到，

真爱。。。

你的心意，

何时才要表示，

何时才能够开花结果，

结局是否真的，

真的可以如我想象中，

如此的，

完。。。。美。。。。

真爱，

应该只有你的表示，

才得以让我圆梦吧！！

或许吧！

这世上根本，

没有，

真爱，

这回事。。。

yuhoo......finish exam lor....hahahaha...^^

very
very
very happy ...
yeah.....
2day is the last paper...
ADD MATH...
haiz...
although i think i hv nv try my best ....
bt ..
it's ok...
cauz i not nid think so much about exam edi....
nid 2 think for next week kem le...
22/11/2008 to 1/12/2008
wow ...
it's time 2 relax leh...
hahahaha
frens...
hope u'll will go along very good in holiday ....
healthy ..
boy ...handsome always ...
girl....beautiful always ...
who wan keep fit de...
wish u will success....^^
gambateh lor...
me ..
wan waiting for a love lor ...
waiting for that guy....



i really ..
really feel very stupid lor...
the guy only noe 2 accept my paid of love...
bt i still on crazy and stupid situation...
on continue paid my love ...
wat i wan
jz wan his acceptable for my love...

mayb any ppl who invited my blogspot pages...
they will think...
y i jz always thinking about love....
y i nv think that wat will happen after fail 2 get a love...


i could tell them ..
i noe.....
bt i more wanted 2 get the memory which r love and nice ...
memory will last for long long time ...
so i will do tat ...
although i noe the end of this relationship.....


love is also one road will must go through in our life ...
bt at least ...
i dun like somebody ...
scard about love...
we should always try and courage 2 face tis ...
right ?



2day mood ws not bad...
so ...
i wan stop here ...
2 prevent my mood will be bad again . . . . .

bb..........




but i hv receive one more news ...
i find tat the present of bird i gv 2 ...wei....
i found he have count himself...
really really so happy in my....
..........heart.............

A LOVE WHICH R NO ANSWER

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U , HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,HAPPY ..BIRTHDAY TO U "
HAPPY BIRTHDAY....
TIS SONG I WAN 2 SING FOR A GUY ...WEI ...
HE WAS 2 YEARS OLD ELDER THAN ME ...LAST MONDAY WAS HIS BIRTHDAY...
ON THE START , HE DUN WAN 2 RECIEVE MY PRESENT ...AFTER I TALK A FEW WITH HIM ...HE RECEIVE IT ..
THE PRESENT WAS A REGARD AS A GIRL WHO LOVE HIM ..IT WAS OSO AS A FREN REGARD ...I HAVE USE 10 MONTH 2 COMPLETE TIS PRESENT ...ALWAYS GO FOR SHOP 2 BUY PAPER 2 FOLD ..THE BIRD ...
THE AMOUNT OF BIRD IN TIS PRESENT WAS 1001 ...DID HE NOE WAT TIS AMOUNT MEANS ...DID HE NOE...
WHEN HE RECIEVE THE PRESENT ..THE AMOUNT OF BIRD HE GUESS WAS ONLI 500...
I WAS NT TINK ANYELSE ...BUT I TELL HIM MORE THAN 1000...
AND HIS YOUNGER BROTHER WAS CURIOUS ON THE AMOUNT ..SO HIS BROTHER COUNT THE BIRD ... FIRSTLY I THOUGHT HE COUNT HESELF ..AFTER I NOE THAT NOT HIM ...I WAS LOSE HOPE ..HOW DARE ..THIS PRESENT IS 2 HIM ..HOW DARE HE GV HIS BROTHER 2 COUNT ...I ASK ..DID U COUNT TOGETHER ,HAVE U NV C HW THEY COUNT...
"NO,I DIDNT COUNT WITH THEM ,BT I GOT LOOK FOR THAT "
HURT ,HURT ME SO BAD ..TIS PRESENT WAS 2 HIM AND HE DOESNT COUNT IT HESELF....
HURT SO BAD ...
YESTERDAY NIGHT , I CALL UPON HIM ...
I ASK HIM ...
"DOESNT U NOT FEEL ANY TOUCHING "
"DOESNT U HAVE ANYTHING 2 TELL ME "
" DID U HAVE SOMETHING WAN 2 HONEST 2 ME"
"Y U SAY THAT , I HV ASK U SOME QUESTION TAT U CANT GV ME ANSWER"
"MY INFLUENCE 2 U MAY NOT B SO BIG 2 U , RIGHT?"
"I NOT UR'S WHO, FOR WAT U FEEL STRESS..."
"MY INFLUENCE 2 U MAY NOT B SO STRESS ,RIGHT? "
" UR BIRTHDAY , U FEEL SICK..RIGHT? "
" DID WE HAVE CHANCE 2 OUT FOR EATING ? "
" I NOE U WAN EXAM AFTER DEEPAVALI , HAVE U PREPARE ? "
Y U ALWAYS TAKE A PRETEND 2 RUN OFF MY TALKING , Y U SO SCARD 2 ANSWER ME ABOUT ANY RELATIONSHIP, Y U LIKE ME ,AND U NOT COURAGE 2 TALK ?
OR AL OF TIS JZ MY THINKING .OR MORE SERIOUSLY , DREAMING ..
HOW DARE U ?
DUN NOE Y , I HV BLANK A SPACE FOR U IN MY HEART , DO U NOE IT?
HOW WAS ME IN UR HEART ? HV U BLANK ANY PLACE FOR ME ..??
I WAS SO EXCITED 2 FIND OUT THE ANSWER ..
BT TIS LOVE DOESNT HV ANY ANSWER , Y?
U NOE Y ?
WHEN I WAS THINK , U SAY ME THINK SO MUCH ..
U SCOLD ME OR U JZ GV ME ADVISE ..U SAY
" Y U LIKE 2 THINK SO MUCH ?"
" U STUDY FOR WAT "
" HOW COULD U SRY 2 UR PARENTS "
" U GO FOR TUITION , ATTEND 2 SCHOOL , WAT HAVE U LEARN "
SO HURT , DID U NOE...
I REPLY UR MSG , I SAY
" DID I SAY WRONG ,DID I SAY WRONG ON U "
"U ALWAYS GV ANY ANSWER WHICH R JZ A PRETEND , Y U DO THAT .."
" HV U EVER THINK THAT THE PRESENT I HV PREPARE 2 U ON EARLY EARLY TIME ,DID U NOE I HV PUT SO MUCH OF TIME AND REGARD IN THIS PRESENT ?
DID U NOE !! ??DID U NOE MY REGARD OF A GIRL WHO LIKE U ..
WHEN I CALL U OUT FOR EATING , U SAY NT FREE , OR BETTER WE DUN GO OUT EAT
JZ HAVING EAT , FOR WAT U THINK SO MUCH ...
I ASK DID U HV SOMETHING WAN 2 HONEST 2 ME , U SAY LATER , NOW U WAN PREPARE FOR EXAM....
I SAY I WAN 2 TELL U SOMETHING , BT I WAN U DUN THINK SO MUCH ,AND PREPARE BFORE I TELL U ...
WE REALLY HV SOMETHING PROBLEM NID 2 SOLVE BETWEEN US FACE TO FACE....
HV U FORGOT WAT U HV SAY 2 ME ...
U SAY WAN 2 INVITE ME 2 EAT ...I HV HELP U SO MUCH ON COPY THE NILAM ...HV U FORGOT OR U JZ TALKING LIE U NT REMEMBER EDI?
LAST TIME ...I ASK U SOMETHING ABOUT UR FEELING ON ME ?
ON RESULT , U LIKE ME ..BT JZ A TIME AND A TIME ONLI ...
I SAY IT ON MSN ..
I SAY
" I LIKE U "
BT U HV HURT ME SO BAD ...
DID U FEEL ANYTHING SORRY 2 ME ....
SOMETIME I FEEL U WAS SO SELF-CENTERED ...U DOESNT THINK FOR OTHER ...
I DUN NOE Y , ALTHOUGH MY CARE FOR U HAVE SHOWN , BT U NV HV ANY RESPONSES , JZ SAY U WILL DO THAT OR .....
Y ? WAT HAPPEN 2 U ?
Y ? U SO STRESS ?
Y ? U NOT NID 2 STRESS ON ME ?
Y? IF U LIKE ME .
Y ? U DUN TELL UR FEELING ?
Y...
TIS IS Y I SAY ..
TIS IS A LOVE WHICH HV NO ANSWER ...
I HV THINK BFORE..IF I DIDNT TAKE ANY PLACE IN UR HEART , FOR Y U CANT ANSWER MY QUESTION, Y U WILL FEEL STRESS,Y MY INFLUENCE 2 U SO BIG UNTIL STRESS.. OR ...U FEEL STRESS THAT I HV WRONG THINKING THAT U LIKE ME...I DUN NOE ...I DUN NOE...I REALLY DUN NOE....Y! Y! Y!...THIS NT WAT I WAN...

Y THE LOVE WORLD SO CONFUSING AND SUFFERING...Y!












PS: IF LOVE COME ,Y U WAN 2 PUSH AWAYS .
IF U PUSH AWAYS , WILL U REGRET ON IT..
IF U HV REGRET ,I WILL ACCEPT U BACK..
BT MAKE SURE ..U HV THINK PROPALY ON IT BFORE U MAKE ANY DECISIONS ..




THIS ONLI WAT I WAN 2 TELL ...JZ WHETHER U HV ACCEPT IT OR .........
I WILL ALWAYS WAITING FOR UR HONEST...IF U REALLY DOESNT HV ANY FEELING ON ME ,TELL ME ?
IF WE CONTINUE 2 B LIKE THIS , WAT I CAN TELL IS , EACH OTHER OF ME AND U WILL NOT FEEL HAPPY BT SUFFERING BETWEEN US .....THIS IS THE PROBLEM WHICH HV LAST FOR ABOUT 3 YEARS ...DUN SUFFERED AGAIN ...I WILL NT FEEL ANY HAPPINESS







A LOVE

I LIKE U
DID U LIKE ME
I CANT SAY I REALLY LIKE U ..
OR MAYB MY LV 2 U HV BEEN ABATE
BT ,
HOW WAS U
DID U LIKE ME?
OR U SAME LIKE ME
UR LOVE 2 ME OSO HV BEEN ABATE
IF LIKE ON EACH OTHER ,
DOESNT IT MEAN THAT WE R DESTINY
JZ U WAN ACCPET IT OR REJECT IT
BT I CAN TELL U
I REALLY LKE U ..
HV U SEEN MY HEART ?
PREPARE 2 TELL ME UR HEART ?
I HOPE OUR HEART CAN BELONGS 2 EACH OTHER
I HOPE ..
I REALLY HOPE IT ..
I HOPE 2 B EXEMPLARY OF A COUPLE IN FRONT OF MY FRENS
I HOPE I CAN GET A LOVE
BETWEEN THE GUY I LIKE .
AND THE GUY WHOM LIKE ME TOO.
WILL IT REALIZE ?
IT WAS STILL A DOUBTS UNTIL NOW ..
EXCEPT U HV NOE MY HEART

REMEMBER,

U COMPLETE ME,

U MAY COMPLETE ME ,

THIS IS A LOVE

A HAPPY TRIP WITH MY FAMILY.....^^

after a three day two night trip...
oh my god...
so tired ...not enough sleep , energy wasting , money wasting ...
tis three day i have go 2 thai..
from 30.9.08 to 3.10.08....
cant think ...
tis three day was go over so fast ....the first day go...i jz think...gd lor....got somemore 2 day 2 play....
such child thinking...haha...
lastly back home with happy and tired ...
the last day ...after home ...keep all the bag ...things and so much... at last...2 o'clock sleep...11 o'clock reach home...haiz ...tired ...
2 day ...so much cloth 2 b fold and clean up the house ...haha....tired...
think and think...
oh my god...
3 essays and 1 folio not yet b complete...
but 2 day i 'm so lazy and lazy...awake at 12 o'clock...haha...
the homework didnt finish ...one oso no.....i c 2morow nid 2 burn midnight oil lor...haha....
so pity....tis all come from my lazy bhave ....haha....^^
although the trip was nt long ...
but me and family go over with more gd relationship and more...
i gain a lot ...experience....tuk tuk car ..the transport at thai ...nid 20 barts in one person ...
it mean 2 ringgit in malaysia...hehe
i buy so much things oh...
the day bfore i reach thai...i jz sms in whole journey 2 there in bus...the pick hoon lor...
talking so much rubbish in sms ...waste my money only....haha ...jz kidding....
one more person...jie...he was talking so much too ...with me ...last day i heard he hv gf oh...
dunno it's real or not...
if got ..wish him happy dating lor...
haha..exam coming lor...gt mood 2 dating ...haha...
bye bye

偏心。。。重男轻女

偏心。。真的很偏心。。
为什么我会有这样的父母。。。
偏心。。
今天是中秋节的前一天。。。
朋友家举办了一个中秋晚会。。。
哥哥有的去。。。我却没有。。
我恨。。恨。。。
哥哥的在仁嘉隆。。我的只是在PKNS
我就没得去。。真的偏心
哥哥才一句。。：“我今天要去朋友家吃，有烧烤会”。
我说了那么多。。回复的只是一句：“对不起，我不给你去”
是不是偏心。。。
恨。。。真的很恨。。。
我恨你们。。。
一点考虑都没有就这样回复。。。
不曾去参加的我。。。难得一次去参加中秋晚会。。
难道我真的一点机会都没有吗？？
就连最好的朋友都帮不了我。。
我才不会那么恨我的。。。。
我真的很失望。。
我和一些朋友临时改变的决定。。。
让我不知道要怎么去向这个中秋晚会的筹办人和朋友道歉
准备了我们的份。。。我们却一个个都没到
多了一个人的份。。。钱又要多出一点。。。
我真的很愧疚。。。
燕香， 对不起。。。因为我让你麻烦了不少。。
都是我害的。。。对不起。。。
因为我还未确定的答案。。。让你又要为我烦恼是否要准备我的份。。
对不起。。。我把你害惨了。。。
真的对不起。。。
我一定会报答你对我所做的一切 。。。
一定会。。。
希望你不要生气。。。
对不起






燕香：-
对不起。。。你为了我一直都不确定的答案和筹备这个中秋晚会而忙了一整天
对不起。。。我希望你会给我一个报答你的机会。。。
多准备了的食物请你帮忙把它分给大家吃吧。。。
我不会到了。。。对不起。。


银美：-
对不起。。。我一直以为我的父母会允许我到你筹办的中秋晚会。。。
为了这个中秋晚会。。。你也一定很累吧！
对不起。。。因为我你们要多准备一份食物给我。。
真的很对不起。。希望会得到你们的原谅。。对不起。。。
希望你筹办的这个中秋晚会会很成功。。。希望。。。
要玩得开心一点哦！！
对不起！！

MOOD 2DAY WAS NOT BAD..^^

I HAVE BOUND A SHORT HAIR..
NOT BAD OH..
HAHA..
I GET AN ADVISE FROM MY FRIEND ..ABOUT FAMILY..
ON THE TIME I LOOK FOR MY ADVISER BLOG...
I CRY...
THE FEELING AND STRESS IN MY HEART WAS POUR OUT..
THE NEXT DAY...
CAN'T WAKE UP ...CAUZ CRY...
LONG TIME I DIDN'T CRY EDI...
HAHA...IF I WRITE OUT ...IT'S MEAN I NOT B SHY ...
HAHA...^^


EXAM IS COMING ...
IT'S TIME 2 PUT THE PRESSURE ON..
IF NOT ...
CAN'T SUCCESS..
I HAVE STUDY WITH MY VERY GOOD FRIEND..
YEE EE ...HAHA...
GAMBATEH ...
WE MUST DO TAT ...
WE CAN DO TAT...
MUST BELIEVE UR OWN ...
I WILL DO TAT WITH U ...
DON'T PLAY COMPUTER EDI...
U'RE A GAL...
STUDY MORE IMPORTANT ....
PLAY OSO MUST CONTROL DE ...
OK??



SHOW OUT ME TAT U CAN DO TAT...
OK??
I WILL GO THROUGH WITH U ...
MY GOOD FRIEND ...
GAMBATEH....


NEW HAIRSTYLE NEW DAY ...HAHA...
HOPE I CAN GET A GOOD RESULT IN PAT...
AND CAN'T B TALK BY MY PARENT EDI...
I WANT 2 MAKE THEM SEE ...ALTHOUGH A PLAY PLAY ALWAYS ...
BUT I CAN GET A GOOD RESULT MORE ...
I WILL SHOW IT...
GAMBATEH...


I HOPE MY PARENT WILL NOT GIVE ME ANY 无形中的压力。。
WISH ABOUT TAT .....

I WAS HAPPY I CAN GET A LOVE ..ALTHOUGH IT WAS VERY SHORT..

HAHA

IT WAS A GOOD MEMORY FOR ME ...

I HOPE TIS WILL LAST FOR MORE LONG TIME BUT ..

I THINK I HAVE NO CHANCE EDI ..HAHA..WISH HE LIVE WITH HAPPY AND MEANINGFUL ...

WISH U ...

沉闷的一天

惨啊!

BIO TEACHER SUDDENLY CALL US DO A PRESENTATION 2 MOROW ...HOW LEH ...DONT KNOW WHERE 2 GET ANY INFORMATION FOR PRESENTATION....

HAIZ...NVM LAH....JZ MAKE IT EASY...

AFTER THE KEM ...MY GOOD FRIEND TAT CHANGE HER OPINION DIDN'T WANT 2 GO MORE ....I FEEL VERY "SHI WANG"AFTER BACK FROM CAMP ...

SHE SAY WE HAVE CHANGE ...

OUR BEHAVE WAS NOT SAME AS B FORE EDI...HOW I WOULD LIKE 2 SAY ... SHE SHOULD NOT CHANGE HER OPINION OF DIDN'T HAVE FRIEND SO SHE DIDN'T GO...REALLY REALLY VERY "SHI WANG "

OK LOR....

CHANGE TOPIC....HAH

I THINK I HAVE **** ON ONE PERSON HE'S A TALL AND SLIM GUY ... NICE PERSON ... GOOD 2 GIRL... I REMEMBER THE LAST DAY OF CAMP I EMBRACE WITH HIM NICE ...SWEET ...(NOT ONLI ME EMBRACE WITH HIM LOR MY FRIEND GOT EMBRACE TOO ) MY FRIEND ALSO THINK LIKE TAT .....HE WAS A GOOD GUY NOT BAD ... NICE ...TALL TALL..SLIM...ACTIVE ...REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM SO MUCH ... BUT I KNOW MYSELF ... IT WAS JZ ONLY A FEEL ON SUDDENLY I KNOW I CANNOT MAKE IT REAL ...AND I DONT KNOW WHERE GOT CHANCE 2 MEET HIM AGAIN ... MAYB ON CAMP NEXT TIME .. HE STUDY AT SUBANG ....OK LOR... YOU QIAN TU....

HAHA...

NICE ....

JZ A HOPE HE WILL BEST ALL THE TIME ....TRY IT UP ...HAHA

马青生活营

我做了一个工委。。
身为工委。。我们必定早一天入营。。
入营的那一天。。所有工委在马华区会集和。。讨论一些细节。。4点必须正式入营偏偏从早上11.30到晚上9点还没入营。
那段时间。我们到总策划的办公室准备营员的证书。。。等了又等。。。终于到了晚餐时间。。。镇阳， 意奕， 碧云， 还有我把吩咐的工作做好了。。等着总策划， 庆喜来载我们。。。锁好了门。。开车上了路。。。
前往jugra需要25分钟。。晚上了。。开车总会特别慢。。
那天晚上。。吃饱了回到了宿舍。。。还得开会。。12.30 。开完会。。。收拾场地直到2.30想要洗澡。。水源太少。。。要冲的时候。。水源突然没了。。。。找了又找。。。宿舍旁有厕所。。。我，碧云，伟杰，还有可怜的营长，添祥。 。 在厕所外等我们三个人。。洗完澡后。 我一直在谢谢他为了我们减少了睡眠时间。。感觉有点委屈了他。。。
回到宿舍， 一躺就睡着了。。3.30 了。。。自然而然的。。第二天早上6.00起了床， 睡眠不足。。
再次开了一次会议。。 准备营员来报名。。7.30 营员们慢慢的到来。。报到处开始忙了起来。。。。哇！ 好累哦！兼职场地， 膳食， 还有摄影的我和伟杰一起忙了起来
午餐时间到了。。我和伟杰在食堂准备。。确认食物后。 营员一组接一组下来享用午餐 。 。 。
吃完后， 我们也开始收拾餐桌。。。 洗的洗， 抹的抹， 做好了。 进了礼堂。。 听着郑有文， 我们的讲师为我们演讲。。
过后， 来了一个小游戏。。 再来。。
马来西亚的歌星， 张起政， 接受我们的邀请前来为我们做了一个简单的音乐分享会， 过后为我们献上了几首歌。。。 营员过后买了他的专辑。。拍了照。 。 。 来了一个亲笔签名。 。。。
我在遗憾。。。因为摄影。。没办法和他来个合照。。。算了。。。已经过去。。免谈。。。但他和工委还有营员也拍了一个大合照。。。不错了啦！
吃完了晚餐 。。最精彩的到来了。。。 “星光之夜”是这次生活营最精彩的一部分。。。。每组分别讨论好他们的节目后。。。 一组接一组的呈现了出来。。。 好棒的。。。。节目顺利完成 。。。。营员们过后被吩咐前往宿舍。。。 准备睡觉。。。
来到了最后一天。。。实行了闭幕典礼后。。。 有一个分享会。。 非常努力的营长哭了。。。 我也哭了。。。跟大家拥抱之后。。 都在各自的营衣上签名作为纪念。。。好感触和热闹的一面。。
完毕之后。。 大家各自回家。。。 工委门整理好场地。。。。来个大合照，过后一起到福建会馆来个庆功宴。。。。
哇！辛苦之后。。。 回到家的感觉真棒！洗刷完毕。。。 马上上床睡觉。。。。
一觉到天亮。。。。睡眠依然不足。。。 惨！！







简单的一个形容。。。。

对我却是最有意义的。。。

我会把这一切放在我的心里。。。

THE PERSON IN MY HEART

he,jz a boy which i like so much,1001 of star , keychain ,necklace,1001 of bird it may be the last present for him.....DID he know about that ...we like each other ..but i realy really dont not y ..... y y he dont accept me jz a girl who wait him back from national services....haih.....bad loh..onli wanted a romantic love but cant get wat i want ...i really love him so much.....MY FRIEND TOLD ME THAT I HAVE GIVE OUT TOO MUCH ON HIM..TIME..ENERGY..IT MAKE ME VERY TIRED ...SOMETIME I WILL REGRET Y I WILL LIKE A PERSON WHO LIKE ME TOO BUT HE WANTED 2 PUT ON HIS ATTENTION ON STUDY AND NOT CARE ABOUT A GOOD CHANCE OF HAVING A LOVE ...SO I THINK ITS NOW THE TIME TO PUT OFF ALL THE THINGS ...
GIVE A COMMENT ..SHOULD I CONTINUE 2 DO MORE ON HIM ....I HOPE I WILL GET A GOOD WAY TO SOLVE THIS PROBLEM

THIS IS MY FIRST TIME

At 26/7/2008 i have taking a photo with my friend cousin and a boy which we re not so known about each other i really happy that day...besides that day was 23rd LEO INSTALLATION of smk sultan abdul samad and it was my first time be an audience looking for the show . It was also the birthday of my gd friends and cousin this year she had been the vice president of leo cub ...hehe..not bad loh...i wish her happy birthday and good job try up the best .....